Day 8 and 9 Hel-lo, Heather..are you listening???

[Heather DeAngelis]

Saturday Greetings, Friends!

Day 8
I was in the process of reading Cami's book, since trying to work on my own projects seemed improbable with my own "monkey brain" making it so difficult to focus, and I was hooked! I had a hard time putting it down, but answered the call from my friend who needed me to pick up her son from school because her appointment was running late..I normally don't pick up her kids on Fridays so I was grateful to have found a gift for the day :-) I also took my daughter for a pedicure and then made a really tasty dinner for us. We watched the Wizard of Oz together last night, which we enjoyed. We crashed after, but I was feeling unsettled..something was nagging at me and I wasn't sure I wanted to open that door..

Day 9
I woke up today feeling like lead weights were in my arms and legs..oh no, I thought, a flare is coming on. I was supposed to meet my best friend at his new apartment ..which I had not yet driven to and was a little anxious..I have this fear of getting lost which I greatly overcame when I worked as a home care hospice nurse..but it's been almost a year that I haven't been doing that type of work and the old anxieties were creeping in...I planned out the trip yesterday looking at google maps, but I still wasn't feeling up to it. I called him early to let him know and actually we had a great conversation. I told him about Cami's book and how much I could see myself in her, and then the realizations were hitting me like 2x4's....I was just as stubborn about admitting I needed help and receiving was still an issue for me! I had learned to take care of myself...after getting divorced (ok, not once but almost twice now...still waiting for that to finalize..long story lol) dealing with the death of so many beloved patients, not to mention my parents and immediate family, I was invincible, right? OK, yeah, of course I had my days where I am exhausted or have other physical symptoms that are annoying, but I am not really a complainer... that's also part of the problem. Not saying how I really feel out loud makes it not as much of a reality and therefore it will go away...NOT lol I agreed to make dinner for us, and promised I would let him do a Reiki session on me (usually, I say "no, I'm fine). I laid down for most of the day, reading Cami's book and found myself more and more inspired. As I write this, roasted italian sausage and potatoes are in the oven, and my friend is due here soon. My giving seems to pale in comparison to what I received today..but maybe that was the point :-) A heartfelt "thank you" to Cami...you can never know how much I needed to "hear" your message and how grateful I am that you shared your journey with us..the good, the bad and the ugly! LOL :-) ♥

[Heather DeAngelis]

Jane...you are not "bad" lol did you enjoy them?? I hope so..M&Ms can perk up a rainy day ;-) @Dawn..you are so right! I was happy to receive that Reiki session from my friend and I know he was glad that he could do something to help me :-) Deb..I have much more than I ever expected..I am very blessed in so many ways..death has shown me how to LIVE, lupus reminds me that I am human, and the lesson of giving and receiving has been one of the greatest gifts of all...enjoy the rest of your weekend too! ♥

[Jane]

Hey -- I hear ya. It's the dreary weather. Today I was all about the taking -- stole all the peanut m&ms from the kids Holoween stash bad bad bad.

[Dawn]

it's really sad how many of us feel the same way about asking for help or even accepting help that is offered. i know i have trouble with it. i'm so glad that Cami's book helped you take a step in that direction. remember, when you allow others to help you, that is a gift to them, too. Hugs, Dawn

[deb jolliff]

You deserve so much more with all you have given! Blessings and have a lovely weekend :o)