A model who has wanted to be painted by me for some time now is leaving soon to move back to California. Her name is Kitty. My friend Spooky arranged the surprise body painting session for her at the house I am couch surfing at. We spent the whole day together as I used our session for practice for other projects I am working on. She was delighted beyond words. At one point there was a tv show on that was about a relationship, and the girl kissed the boy for the last time, and it reminded me of what Bean did and does to me... and it hurts like hell... I broke down and cried. I couldn't paint. She was the one who was naked, but I felt so vulnerable and raw there at her feet bawling... she crouched down and rubbed my back until the tears subsided.We changed the channel and tried to avoid relationship shows the rest of the day.
I finished painting her around 9:30pm. Then her, Spooky, and the gang we all went out to a local pub and had drinks. I had a diet coke. I Drew on the coasters, and the waitress loved the one I did of a pirate ship so I gave it to her. My friend Spooky loves dragons, so I drew one of a dragon and gave it to him...
Today this computer is going away. I am getting another loaner and I have no idea what will happen. The engagement is broken off... she doesn't want to live with me any more and I had to go get another storage unit today... I am trying to be positive but it is hard when your basic needs are threatened.
Love you guys.
Thanks for every encouraging word.