After reading more chapters about organizing, I got motivated to take a further step in my organizing project. I love buying books of different topics and that's part of the burdan whenever I travel and move. I got aware that I use "knowledge" to fill anxious insecurity. However, if you're anxiously filling your brain, you are not able to digest it, and to fill the insecurity of not able to digest knowledge, I keep more books to feel safe (convincing that I may absorb something from these books later). So I decided to resale those in good condition (most of them are almost new since I didn't really read them that much.) I put them in different piles, one is nice books I can give to a friend, one I can resale on Amazon for a nice price, one is of less value but I can trade in for some gift credit. And indeed, clearing those unrealistic and unnecessary "I would like to master this ancient language (any kind of rare knowledge) so that I can feel good and special" meaning I can live more in present. Actually I'm pretty experienced at buying and selling old books since I like to pile books as much as I like to travel and move.
I was assigned a new duty which requires me to give and give and give intensively. The more I do it, the more I feel safe to let go my limit. All I need is practice.