I tried to write this blog entry yesterday but felt really drained and realized that I was putting a negative spin on things. Decided to take a breather and come back to it today.
Yesterday was a busy day that didn't seem to play out the way it was planned. This is the hardest thing for me to deal with. Even if something unexpectedly good happens to me I feel like it's not right because it wasn't planned. Cami states, "having some kind of plan would make me feel better" and I couldn't agree with her more. My weekends are usually planned ahead of time and tend to be jammed pack so I know what I'll be doing each hour of the day. My weekdays aren't much different.
The day started with a hike with some of my friends. The hike started later then planned and therefore was going to cut into other plans for the day that each of us had. Hiking is probably my favorite thing in the world. I love the challenge the feeling of accomplishment and the beauty of nature all around me. It was a little bit of a challenging hike and we had a friend with us who hasn't done it before. The whole hike I was up in front going in my own pace and then would wait for the rest who were trying to stay behind with our friend. Overall, our pace was a lot slower than usual and we didn't get to make it to the top because of time. I struggled with this and felt like a quitter. On our way down I told myself that my gift to myself was going to be both patience and accomplishment. I stayed behind to walk with my friend in her pace and ended up having a great chat with her the way down. At the bottom of the hike I felt accomplished that even though we didn't hike the 6.5 miles we set out to do, 5 miles wasn't a bad way to start the day :)
I had a coworkers baby shower to go to from there. Didn't know many people there and felt slightly out of place but than sat around with some other coworkers and had a great chat. I bought a coloring book for another coworker's daughter who was suppose to be there but didn't end up coming. I was a little disappointed I wouldn't be able to give it to her myself but instead gave it to her mom. An hour later I got a call from my coworker and her daughter was on the line thanking me for the coloring book. That instantly made me smile :)
The rest of the day didn't go as planned. I planned to meet up w/ some friends from out of town for dinner/drinks. I hadn't heard from them and didn't know what the plan was. Another friend of mine was going to go see Harry Potter and invited me to come along. I hate making plans with more than one person and have this extremely strong guilty feeling when i have to decide what to do. I kept changing my mind back and forth thinking if I went to the movie and then heard from my friends from out of town I would feel guilty not meeting them up, especially since I had no other plans to see them this weekend. Some time went by and yet no call. I ended up going to see Harry Potter. I'm glad I did and it ended up working out for the best since the others ended up not coming into town until really late. Before the movie started there was a money jar going around were they were collected change for St. Jude's Hospital. I dug through my purse and gave all the spare change that I could find.
Yesterday didn’t go as planned but it wasn’t a bad day at all :)