Day 5th, October 5th

[Judy D]

Day 5^th, October 5^th

Today I gave the gift of thanks. Sounds weird I know but it was a gift of sorts. A little while ago I was sitting in bed and thinking of taking some pills. Darren has them all now; I have had my meds taken away a couple of times. This time I smuggled a couple to many and hide them from Darren. So I was sitting and thinking if I should leave a note or not. I had the laptop up and got a “ping” for receiving a personal message. I looked at the message and it was a friend that had moved away a while ago. She had mentioned my post (which were downers) and shared a church with me to visit. Then she went on to just “talk” that was it. I went ahead and answered her back – still thinking of taking my life. After awhile of “just talking” the thoughts of suicide were gone and my day was better. At the end of chatting my friend stated that she felt that God had led her to me that day to help. I realized what I had been thinking before the day long on and off chat and she was right God had led her to me! I then cried and got out of bed and started to work out … it worked J So back to the gift, today I went ahead and sent her a card telling her what I had been planning that day. In one of her messages to me that day she stated that she didn’t want to pry. I told her in the card today that I was sharing this with her because I wanted to make sure that she knew and would share that prying is not always a bad thing … It could save a life.

[Deb~ Community Manager]

I am crying right along with you.. xoxo I am always here for you..

[Lois55 wwt]

Good night...take care, and sweet dreams..

[Judy D]

Thank you both so much ... typing through tears is hard LOL ... I am happy to know that I am thought of and loved, and I already LOVE my new family here .. You are right Deb Darren (aka Bubba) agrees with you! He is sitting here with me :) Good night to you both ... Gods Blessings, Judy

[Lois55 wwt]

There is www.Unity.org, and they have a prayer line..1-800-669-7729. Please consider calling that number if you feel lost. And if you need to "talk", private message me. Take care, you are loved.

[Deb~ Community Manager]

Being a survivor of someone that did this I pray you won't ever think that again. Please, I beg you... You are loved and needed. Bubba would be lost~ We would too.. xoxo

[Lois55 wwt]

Judy, I am so glad you are here...please please don't entertain that thought again!!!Your family needs you, they would be devastated!! I am so glad your friend messaged you, she was certainly sent by God, I am sure of it!! There is a prayer line to call if ever you need someone. I will get that from our member, M, she has it in one of her blogs. Please take care, know you are loved by many. You have a family here who care for you too.Hugs to you, Dear Friend.