Days 3 thru 6

[GloriaP]

I've gotten a little behind. Day 3 - I read about a nearby town that will have to close their swimming pool due to lack of funds and decided to send them $20. Not much, really, but I think swimming pools are so important for kids. On Day 4-Thursday, Dec. 31; my husband and I didn't really have big plans but we were going to go out for drinks after work and a bite to eat. When I picked him up, he said he had not really felt good at work (we have both had colds). So I said, we'll just stop and pick up some steaks for dinner and go home. My gift was cooking for him when I had planned to go out. On Friday, New Year's, Day 5- he felt better and went to his buddy's to watch the OSU game. I really have to admit that I resented his leaving on a holiday. I would never make plans that didn't involve him on a holiday. But I did give him the gift of keeping my negative ideas to myself, and I gave myself the gift of taking the day off, and just watching tv. Saturday Day 6- I made a big breakfast for my husband. Sunday, Day 7- I'm not sure I have done anything out of the ordinary- but I did cook for him; breakfast and dinner.
I've also been doing a lot of thinking about giving. Two things occurred to me; one- I have somehow allowed my life to shrink to the point where I don't really interact with other people all that much. Even at work, I am in my own cube most of the time, and just waiting for a giving opportunity to present itself doesn't seem to be working that well. This weekend has also been isolating, in that it has been so cold, I have stayed in. The other thing I realized about myself is that while I like doing things for other people; I am pretty hung up on getting recognition for it. I can see that most of the relationship problems I have stem from that. I do things for other people and if they don't seem to appreciate it as I think they should; I get upset. So maybe I just gave myself the gift of self awareness. It's not really a pretty picture, but I never really saw it before. So m aybe this blogging thing is working, after all.