I just keep on thanking everyone of you. Being together in this is very inspiring and motivating. It is so recomforting to know that there is a group of people out there that simply wants to get out of their own axis and help. Love. Give. Transform this world from their own little spot. And I am just so happy to be part of this group. I can't stop thanking for your words which keep me on track.
(Day 3 continued: I also went out of my way to take one of the dinner guests home so she wouldn't have to spend money on a cab)
Day 4: I have a date. I have not been in a relationship for some time, since my last one dissapointed me deep in my heart, so it made it difficult to trust again. But I'm fine. Anyway, I intended my gift today to be to transform this first date I have into a double date and share this warm moment with a very dear girlfriend of mine who really has been wanting to find someone special for a long time. Unfortunately, my plan did not work out since my date did not have a friend for her available that night.
Day 5: I share a wonderful message posted on Dawn's blog with all my contacts on my social network, but also personally with my parents and personally but electronically with my nephew. I am particularly worried for him, for he is leaving behind his puberty years and since he leaves very far away from me, I really don't have an opportunity to be by him and guide him as much as I'd like to. The day before I was thinking about this and thought "What CAN I do?"....at least I can send him good messages through the social network. So I logged in and didn't really know what to say, so I figured that when I'd find something, I'd post it for him. Next day in the morning, I see this beautiful, beautiful video Dawn posted and thought Wow...there it is. I haven't received a reply from him, but I'm on the move. And THAT is a gift for myself, nonetheless for him.
Also I baked a cake for my parents. And again I tried to do something for this wonderful girlfriend of mine, which was to forgive her a cash debt she has towards me, but she is just so righteous, that she would not allow me to.
So all this experience, got me thinking. On a regular basis, I spend maybe 90% of my time doing things for myself. Good things, but for myself. The 29 day challenge reminds me how unimportant I am. How can I spend so much time on me if I am such a little part of this universe. How unconsciously ungrateful I am for what I have. Because, even though everyday I thank the Lord for what He has given, not every day I thank him in action.