Today I was blessed to have my husband home from work. The one upside to ARMY life stateside is the occasional 3 or 4-day weekend. He is in intense training for an upcoming endeavor, so after some time put in at the gym and a shower, he took a nap with Baby Bear. During that time my sister called, and I was able to give her my full attention.
My sister is currently 7 weeks pregnant. The highly -condensed backstory is that my sister had PCOS and Stage 3 endometriosis. She had laproscopic surgery to remove the endometrial cells and cysts from her ovaries. Three weeks after the surgery she, and her then- boyfriend conceived the baby. I believe all babies are a blessing, and although not the ideal circumstances (she lives at home with my parents, and is no longer technically with her boyfriend) I am ecstatic for her. She's my little sister; of course I am!
Back to the original story- she called and was venting on how she was hearing a lot of negativity from co -workers and her boyfriend's sisters regarding the "m word" (miscarriage) . Instead of reminding my sister that she had said the same things to me during my pregnancy, I just listened to her. During my pregnancy, my husband was in training the entire time after we conceived our son. My sister, unfortunately, was not very supportive, and turned my mother's side of the family against me by telling them I had not allowed she or my mother to attend my first ultrasound, but had allowed my stepmother. My aunt who was like my best friend, and my cousin's wife did not speak to me my entire pregnancy. They only talked to me after I had my son because I had severe Post -Partum Depression.
As you can tell, I had some hurt feelings of resentment towards my sister for not supporting me or being loyal to me during my pregnancy. I decided today I'm letting it go. Although I have not, and will not, bring it up to her, (I don't want to cause her any stress) I am choosing to forgive. So, today, my gift was to listen and provide positive feedback to my sister's worries.
I forgot to mention that my affirmation today was that I would give freely.
Today I am thankful for:
1. My baby boy's adorable new gapped front teeth.
2. Loving friends back home.
3. Peanut butter.