I am exhausted. After stretching my ability to be around people to the limit last night, I awoke early this morning to a text from my landlord about meeting to discuss her project. I then spent 6 hours with her, going over details that had nothing to do with what she originally asked me to do. (I think she had no idea how much work was involved, and something that should have been started more than a month ago is now down to the wire - but, lesson learned for next year). I was able to share a lot of expertise in an area other than the one she hired me for, and I know she really appreciated all my help.
By late afternoon, though, I'd had more time-around-people than I had in the entire previous 30 days combined, and I felt totally fried. I really like my landlord, as well as the other people we met/talked with. But liking them is besides the point; just being around people for that long exhausts me. However, it also distracts me from thinking or ruminating too much :)
I do feel good about being able to help her, and to help her in a way far beyond what she anticipated. I also know that because of the time frame and my exhaustion, I'm not as effective as I could be, which is frustrating. But...one step at a time. I'll get some rest tonight and hopefully be able to work entirely on my own, and uninterrupted, tomorrow (which is what I'd thought today would be).
Gift-wise (aside from the above), I did the pay-ahead-for-a-stranger's-coffee thing, and then tonight, I went to the grocery store and picked up two $5 gift cards. Part of me was a bit wary, because now I can actually see the bottom of my bank account, without knowing what will refill it. But I trust things will continue to come in. Anyway, the man behind me in line was returning bottles; I recognized him from, I think, the soup kitchen (not homeless, but struggling). So I turned around, placed one of the cards on top of the bottles was returning and said, "Happy weekend! Pass it on when you can." and I left while he was still thanking me. So that felt really good.
I also made my monthly payment in my Financial Situation, and I got a bank draft to make another payment (a different part of the Financial Situation). That's why I can suddenly see my balance dropping! But I'm extremely glad that I'm able to make those payments, and I trust that somehow I will be able to continue making them. One thing at a time.
Did I mention I'm exhausted?! Off to bed for me. Hope you all had a good Friday. Cheers!