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[IslandGirl]

In keeping with my desire to give with the right intentions (and not overgive out of anxiety), my gifts today were small but sincere: two emails to people I'd been meaning to email but kept not quite getting around to it. There are many days when personal emails are just part of what I do, and I don't count them as gifts. But today my other gift ideas were thwarted, and so I committed to sending those two as my gifts.

The thwarted gifts were: an attempt at a group photo (to five women who had no idea what I was saying, even when I mimed taking a picture) and a planned stealth give of the grocery gift card I have. There was some resistance there, because part of me still has fear around money. But it also felt like a good opportunity to focus on giving what feels scarce - and I did buy it with the intention of giving it away. My plan was to place it in - guess where? - a washroom, but when I got there, there was a lineup. Hard to do stealth that way (LOL), and I didn't have the patience to wait it out.  

Then, late this afternoon, I thought I could give the mowing-the-lawn gift. My landlords still haven't brought a new lawnmower, and the lawn is out of control. Again. Which doesn't bother me as much as it bothers the neighbours (though it would be nice to be able to mow it, and it's been 3 months since the old one died). One neighbour offered to let me borrow his, but between the heat and different schedules, I haven't been able to do it. So this afternoon - very grumpily, and not at all in the spirit of giving - I thought, "FINE. I'll do it at 6:00, when it's cooled down." As fate would have it, the neighbour wasn't home. So maybe that will be tomorrow's gift - and I'll be in a more appropriate headspace to view it as a gift.

I'm in a grumplebunny mood (to use Deb's word). Lots of different factors/triggers, and I need to remember to focus on the moment and on the positive. In this moment, all is well. 

Hope you all had good Tuesdays. Cheers!

[IslandGirl]

Thanks for all the support. The grumpiness is just hormones; it will pass... (soon, I hope!)  ♥ to you all!

[Deb~ Community Manager]

I believe you need some 29Gifts Community hugs and love! Be easy on yourself kiddo. Rest and tomorrow is another day and I know it will be a better one for you! xoxo

[Yan]

Come on, Island Girl!  Cheers to your beautiful person!  When I get on those "grumplebunny mood" (love it!  I'll adopt this term as well!)  I think of the things that usually make me happy.  One day, I had woken up with the wrong foot, as they say.  I was just not in the mood, honey!  And in the middle of my grumpy old men morning, I accidentally saw myself in the mirror, I tell you, I scared myself!  And I pondered. Is this [face] what I have been giving everyone that comes across me?  Poor people!  And I thought about all the things that usually make my have an amiable face.  Of course, I tell you the face story, which is actually deeper.  Deep into the soul.  For me, who am a particularly expressive person, my face shows my soul in a blink of an eye.  Even to the least sensitive folks!  I can't hide one feeling!  So what I guess what I'm trying to say is, sometimes (some times) it is up to ourselves to wake us up and see the beauty in things.  And when that is not possible, your 29ggc friends are here!  Love :)

 

[Ann]

I know that the recipients enjoyed and appreciated the emails.  It was sweet of you to offer to take the picture and to try so hard to get your message across, even if it did not work out this time.  As for the grocery card, maybe you were meant to keep if for another day, time or place.  The "universe" might have a specific need in mind for that card!  Good luck on the lawn. 

[Lois55 wwt]

I  understand that "grumplebunny mood", been there done that....I hope tomorrow is a much better day, altho emails are a nice way to showing people you are thinking of them. The gift card is a very nice gift, and one I haven't done in a long time....emmm maybe it's time:) Take care..see you tomorrow..xoxo