This morning, I discovered that the pitches I thought I'd sent on Tuesday...were still in my Drafts folder. I have no idea how that happened, but Tuesday was filled with technical glitches, so I sent it right away. (It did explain why I hadn't heard anything back). It was a long document - 11 pages with 15 ideas. Within a couple of hours, the client - my former editor - sent me a one-line response that was very encouraging. Her email made me so happy that I decided to thank her for sending it (even though she hasn't made any decisions yet). I wrote, "Wow, that was a really nice email to receive - thanks!" With anyone who didn't already know me, that might've come across as a little weird, but...she's seen me when I was literally unable to care for myself, so I think she understood the spirit with which it was intended.
Later in the day, I bussed some tables at the coffee shop. The owner joked that they're slowly luring me in to show me how to run the dishwasher.
I also gave myself and someone else (I hope) the gift of addressing a potentially awkward situation head-on, with love and humour. I wrote a week ago about a challenging conversation, and I didn't see that person again until today. I hadn't felt so much hurt by the conversation; it was more that I was confused and at a loss how to express myself in a way this person could receive, and that made me despondent. There were so many (positive) things I wanted to say today, yet the timing was awkward, and it all came out in a jumbled, speeded rush - but I said the important things, and I think (hope, pray) it was received well. It certainly was the opposite of being aloof and quiet! LOL.
As you can tell, my mood is lighter, in large part because of that conversation. Tonight, for the first time in a week, there's only one major trigger in my life, and for the moment, that feels much easier to deal with than two.
Hope you all had good Thursdays. Cheers!