This has been a round of small gifts. I recognize the necessity of it, but I also felt like I needed to stretch, to give what I didn't think I could. So I bought a grocery gift card, placed it in an envelope (they have tiny ones for that purpose) and left it at the bottom of a cart in one of the cart-places (is there a name for them?) in the parking lot. On the front, I wrote "To: whoever finds this From: ??"
This afternoon, I wrote another email about volunteering my writing and marketing skills for the soup kitchen (it turns out I needed to contact a different person). Later, I bussed some tables at the coffee shop while I waited to pick up the leftovers.
I'm back in that place of not knowing whether I'm in denial or acceptance, but right now, I feel confident that things will work out, though I don't yet know how - and I'm enjoying the peace while I can.
I hope you all had great Saturdays! Cheers!