So about a year ago I decided to take ownership of my grandmother's house which also happens to be the house I grew up in and in which I still live. My grandmother signed house over to me and I pledged to help fix up the place. Today I made one more step towards that end. I closed on a refinance so that we can put a new roof on the house, some new windows, and most exciting a new kitchen. While I have been excited about this process for quite some time it has proven to be a stressful decision. I suppose one is always nervous when one agrees to borrow a large sum of money, have their home be turned into a contruction site, and agree to pay it back on time. Today as I was signing the final papers, I felt myself letting go and even laughing a bit. I know that I will be ok but my sometimes over analytic mind gets the best of me and today I tried to keep that at bay. I'm trying to be more open to experiencing the world and this is a good step for me to take. Tonight too, I did some yoga, even though I was tired. The minute my feet feel that yoga mat under them I feel an instant sense of calm! I will try to continue to practice this is the weeks ahead.